Just a little update... upon boarding the plane, that anxious spirit again tried to manifest...I just prayed, & it left. My plane left on time! I'm used to being delayed. It was an unrventful trip :)
I have been sleeping well, since arriving.
I don't experience anxiety, so I know when a spirit is on assignment. It won't succeed with me! These next few days are going to be amazing! 🦋
I can't believe it's finally here! I find myself sitting in the airport, just finished what has become my Seers & Dreamers Gathering pre- flight Tradition.. St Ali coffee & an artisan cookie. Just sitting, watching the planes moving outside the windows.
I didn't sleep well last night... about 2 hours before I went to bed, there was an attack over my peace. I felt an unusual sense of anxiety in the atmosphere. Anxiety is not my norm, so I knew it was spiritual. I played worship for the next 1-2 hours, and felt settled when I went to bed... but my brain decided to go all Chatterbox on me!! For 2 hours, I was thinking, "Shut up brain, and let me sleep!!!" I seriously had a whirlwind of random, unrelated topics running through my brain. Eventually, I fell asleep... I know, because I awoke from a dream.
I farewelled my husband who left for work super early...then finally had one hour of deep sleep.
So, here I am...almost ready to board my plane!
I'm super excited about this SDG! I have been sensing the excitement in my spirit growing as the SDG draws nearer! I am in anticipation of Big things!!! So many things have tried to prevent, or hinder this conference... so.I know it's gonna go OFF!!!
Hope to see you there!
Can you believe it's already the last day of February! Time has flown... and this time last year, I was in Perth for the Seers & Dreamers Gathering (SDG). Seriously, how has it already been a whole year!
I'm on the verge of travelling to the Gold Coast for this year's Seers & Dreamers Gathering.
After the first SDG in Sydney, I was excited to attend Perth...and whatever lid was on the Sydney SDG, flew off in Perth! We were expectant, but God blew our socks off in Perth!
So now, I am feeling excited anticipation for the upcoming SDG. My spirit is stirring...has been stirring for months... whatever happened in Perth, like Sydney, was just a springboard for what's to come on the Gold Coast!
Maybe you are reading this, and are also attending the SDG. If you see me, please say hello...and give me a hug! ;) I'm looking forward to seeing you!! 🦋©️
Happy New Year!
I was looking at very old posts, and remembering when I had glandular fever. Isn't it interesting how time fades memories... but writing about the memories reminds you of how much you have to be grateful for!
I wrote about being exhausted, unable to work more than 3 days a week, then eventually I could work 4. What I didn't write, and is a strong memory - I initially could only work one day in three. I needed a day to recover between shifts! At the time, I was a casual, working for an agency, living with my parents. If I had the regular adult expenses (rent, mortgage, etc), I don't know how I would have coped.
I also was in the prime of wedding planning! So, although I wasn't able to work as much, I had more free time to focus on my upcoming wedding. I actually enjoyed that.
Many people told me that after glandular fever, you are never the same. Energy levels often don't fully return, and fatigue becomes your norm. Unfortunately, despite refusing to accept that, and many prayers for healing... they were right. I don't know why God chose not to fully heal me. Fatigue has been my norm for almost 20 years. You get so used to it... For me, I learned that my physical limits are lower than they used to be. I'm used to listening to my body, and having others not understand my limits. I often push through, but in the first few years after glandular fever, I struggled to even do that. I did not have energy reserves, or the "second wind" we take for granted. Once my energy was used up, it was gone until the following day. These days, a nap can help. But early on, it made no difference.
After feeling frustrated, and wondering if I'd simply become lazy, or I was genuinely tired... a doctor gave me the validation that I was NOT lazy. My body just needs rest. She told me not to be so hard on myself. She also labelled it as post-viral fatigue, and yes, it can last a long time. Many people have since presented with similar symptoms as post-covid fatigue.
I used to love working out at the gym. After my wedding, I was encouraged not to renew my membership because I was pushing myself too hard, with only half of my previous workouts. I put on weight, but I had to admit, I was trying to use energy reserves I simply did not have.
So, what has changed since then? My energy levels gradually increased, I allow my body & mind to rest more... and found ways to incorporate exercise into my day. Some days, walking to/from the train is the best "no excuses" exercise. My job is physically & mentally demanding - I walk 8,000-10,000 steps in a day, just working. I also have energy supplements that help. I work 5 days a week.
I don't know why I'm writing this... maybe it will encourage somebody. If you are in the early stages of recovering from glandular fever, don't lose heart. Be kind to your body and mind. Don't feel guilty for listening to your body. As my doctor said, You're not lazy! Be patient with yourself. It does get better! 💜🦋
If I am honest, I ended the working year feeling burned out. I withdrew from the world. I was in survival mode - just focused on getting through the working year. I now find myself continuing to deliberately disconnect, but with a new purpose - to recuperate.
Many things have caused me to think about who is in my inner circle. Who are the people that bring value to my life? Who can I talk to without boundaries? Who speaks life into my world? Who just listens without judgement?
Being out and about, and hearing conversations of others... I realised I take for granted those in my inner circle. I guess I shelter myself from a lot of 'junk'. I make (often unconscious) efforts to be in a 'clean' environment. To keep my conversations pure and life-giving. When I hear gutter talk from people around me, I realise the quality of friends in my circle. My friends, like me, are not perfect, but they always speak life and truth. They are calming and encouraging. They don't backstab or speak death or harm over anybody.
They are set apart. There are many quotes about the importance of who is in your circle. I agree... we all need a few trusted people who just make the world a better place.
Thank you to those who make my world a better place 💜🦋
(The photo is of a beautiful gift from somebody in my circle 🥰).
Oops... I missed November! 🤭😅 It was a mentally and physically exhausting month. I had many ideas, but a link in the chain from thought to typing broke 🙃 I will continue to work on those ideas, and bring them to life in the future.
Recently, I caught up with my original intercessor & prophetic mentors. One of our topics of conversation was, "Finishing Well".
I had a friend, a pastor from Texas who's blog was named, "Finishing Well". He passed away about a year ago. We never actually met in person, but he was a source of encouragement to me. He was like a wise uncle who would occasionally check in on me, and encouraged me when I needed. As a Palliative Care Chaplain, he helped me through the process of losing my parents-in-law.
His aim in life was to Finish Well. I believe he did.
I'm sure many of us desire to finish well. To hear those words, "Well done, my good and faithful servant" (Matthew 5:23).
How many of us, if we're honest, question how we would respond in a life or death situation? Would we be prepared to die for our faith? To be imprisoned for following Jesus? With the way the world is going, it can be quite a sobering topic. None of us wants to die for our faith, right? But, I'm sure most of us would rather find ourselves in heaven, for being faithful, than hell, for giving in to fear.
I loved how my mentors concluded this subject.... we all need to be praying for ourselves, and our friends to finish well.
So, if you are reading this, I pray that you have the courage and determination to finish well. To eventually hear the words, "Well done, my good and faithful servant". 🦋©️
This morning at church, during worship, God showed me a vision. I saw a potter's wheel, but instead of clay, a glass ball was being created. Two hands were holding it, as if it was a crystal ball. I said, "God, I don't like this. I don't understand what it means!"
He continued the vision. As I watched the hands working, I began to see the ball shape change. It began to stretch upwards. What began as a ball gave the appearance of a lantern. The old fashioned style oil lantern. I felt God say, "Don't accept what you first see. Things are not always as they initially appear. I AM in the details. Don't be afraid. Don't stress. Just wait. Wait for me to show you MY version. What the enemy means for evil, I turn around to GOOD". He showed me that he uses US as lights in the lantern. His light shines through us, and when we feel surrounded by darkness, we are to be His light.
Isaiah 41:10 NIV- So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
This resonated with me, as I've been experiencing intense spiritual warfare during the last few weeks. I'm sure I'm not the only one who needs to hear this. 🦋©️
