Romans 12:2 - Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
This month, I haven't spent much time thinking about writing, but have continued to be "snap happy" - stopping and taking photos, here, there and everywhere! Nature speaks to me. People who know me well, know that at any moment, I could stop suddenly, or backtrack, get out my phone and take a photo! Sometimes I laugh at myself. People must think I'm strange! I wonder if somebody is watching me, wondering what the heck I'm taking a photo of! But...the photo moment is worth it. I love when I witness somebody else doing the same! There's something in the MOMENT. There are many times where I miss the moment... either by over-thinking about whether I should take a photo, or I'm not quick enough with the camera. I try to capture the moment before thinking too much!
Have you ever been amused by somebody taking a photo? Next time, may I suggest you take a look and try to capture the moment too. Or even ask them what has caught their attention. You may be surprised by what you see, sense and feel in that moment.
I am also learning to be unafraid to be me. To take photos without feeling shy or insecure. To be bold. To not regret a moment due to fear of man.
The above photo was taken yesterday, on my walk home from the train. I actually backtracked. People probably saw me, and I'm probably on camera. So what? 😅 I just loved the brightness of that lone autumn leaf, among the dull, dry eucalyptus leaves. It reminded me of how I have been feeling lately.
Since attending the Seers & Dreamers Gathering in Perth, I have been feeling "brighter", more confident and self-assured. I've been feeling set apart in a deeper level... like that bright autumn leaf. It stands out...it didn't choose to stand out, but it was created to stand out. To reach that beautiful, deep crimson colour, took a process. A journey. Without this journey, I would not have noticed it. I wouldn't be able to share it with you.
Years ago, I would have felt very insecure to be that leaf. I didn't want to be seen. I didn't want to be hurt. I just wanted to blend in. In my 20s (20yrs ago ðŸ¤), I went through some amazing deep, inner healing that helped me break that mindset.
Fast forward to today...after years of trying to blend in... I have purple hair. I make an effort with my appearance. I love dresses and nice shoes. (About 15yrs ago, I was a Mary Kay Beauty Consultant. Selling is not my passion, so I left that role after a few years). I'm no longer afraid to be noticed. I can't be hurt if I am self-assured. The enemy tried to pull me down, but I have come out much, much stronger. I know who, and whose I am! And so does the enemy!! I'm sure he regrets messing with me!
Yes, recently I have been feeling set apart. It's not always nice to feel different. However, I'm not afraid to be different. I am clearly aware that my mindset and belief system differs to those of many around me. It can be lonely at times... but I know I have been transformed, with a renewed mind...and there is no way, despite the loneliness, that I will turn back! I was not designed to be a dried up eucalyptus leaf. Even if I could blend in, why would I want to. I've come too far to blend in. ©️😅🦋
