whinge...

I want a new job.....

I want a new job....

I want a new job....

But I have no idea what I want to do!
Only what I DON'T want to do...

2007 Wish List

* Get a new job
* which means I can get a new wardrobe
* Bring my ministry to a new level
* Increase my leadership team
* Re-save the $$ I spent on my holiday

*Stay happy! :p

Sam

Hey Sam, warrior princess, if you read this, I hope you're having a great day!

You're AWESOME girl! Luv ya heaps and hope to hear from you soon! :)

Wardrobe Excitement

I've started cleaning out my wardrobe!!! And my room!!!

I bought this Wardrobe Shoe Holder thing from the Reject Shop...pretty cool concept... It hangs from the pole. You can hold 10 pairs of shoes inside your wardrobe (not under the bed! hehe!) My sister-in-law made me want to copy her! :p

And a Trouser Hanger... and yes, I've THROWN OUT some clothes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But if I had a different job where I could wear all GOOD clothes to work, I would have thrown out HEAPS more! But alas, I will still be wearing them until I find a new job ;) (they're not bad clothes, but I won't cry if I I ruin them at work ;))

What next you ask.... too much to think about but I've STARTED and that's what's important :)

Now to pack away the Christmas tree...yes! It's still up coz we've been too busy or lazy :p

Ciao! :)

Painting Pictures Of Egypt

Painting Pictures Of Egypt
~Sara Groves~

I don’t want to leave here
I don’t want to stay
It feels like pinching to me either way
The places I long for the most
Are the places where I’ve been
They are calling after me like a long lost friend

It’s not about losing faith
It’s not about trust
It’s all about comfortable
When you move so much
The place I was wasn’t perfect
But I had found a way to live
It wasn’t milk or honey
But then neither is this

CHORUS:
I’ve been painting pictures of Egypt
Leaving out what it lacked
The future seems so hard
And I want to go back
But the places that used to fit me
Cannot hold the things I've learned
And those roads closed off to me
While my back was turned

The past is so tangible
I know it by heart
Familiar things are never easy to discard
I was dying for some freedom
But now I hesitate to go
Caught between the promise
And the things I know

BRIDGE:
If it comes too quick
I may not recognize it
Is that the reason behind all this time and sand?
If it comes too quick
I may not appreciate it
Is that the reason behind all this time and sand?

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The first few times I heard this song on the radio I didn't like it... Then one day they had listeners call in and talk abt their favourite songs and why...and this lady talked about how this song has helped her because it talks abt wanting to go back to the old comfort zones, but then it's impossible to fit back in because you have moved beyong them. Then I started to REALLY listen to the song, and started loving it! :)

You can't go back to "Egypt" because you won't ever fit back in! You just have to continue the journey, and treat "Egypt" as an experience to learn from... And why would you WANT to fit back in after all the steps you've taken beyond it! :)

Just thought I'd share a "flashback" of my own ;) I wrote this about a year ago ;)

Are you HAPPY in your career???

Focus on the Family radio broadcast. 19/1/07 (96.3 Rhema fm)
"Flashback Friday" with the late Larry Burkett.

Larry primarily spoke about people who study in one field, and later realise they don't REALLY want to stay in that field, but don't know what else to do.

“We are meant to do one thing in life better than anybody else. All [we’ve] gotta do is find it”.

Larry said the problem is most people find it hard to find what that one thing is! They study in one area and still don't know where they fit...

Many people feel trapped by their career -field studies but are uninterested in pursuing a career in these areas.

When you're 'stuck' like this, you must develop character = do what you don’t want to do with the right attitude.

Eg, a man was a good dentist but later became a builder – he was much happier in construction. He did his dentist job well while he had no other option, but when the right time came he became a happy builder.

A man became a Doctor because his father was a doctor, but he didn’t really want to be a doctor. He was good at his job but he didn’t want to do that job.

8 out of 40 students who graduate will find what they’re good at in society and end up feeling stuck in the wrong job mid-life.

Many people spend years studying in one field, then desire change, but are not qualified in other areas of interest.

Anybody else relate to this? I was sitting in my car listening to this program (I was early for work!!!) and I just felt he was describing ME!
I did 5yrs of study in my career field, and although I'm often told I do a great job, it's no longer where my HEART is. This is my 9th year in this field, and I know I've learned a lot - not just in the field but in my character and confidence. I do my best with what I have, but honestly, I'd rather be doing something different... but ...I too am still "looking for that one thing".

Oh well... I do believe 2007 will be a year of doors opening and shadows becoming clear! It's just sadly encouraging that there are many people out there like me...and this guy gave this talk in the 80's! The radio program was 'recycled' from the shelves.

I'll enjoy my current job while I'm in it's season... and look forward to the new season of change :)

Exiting the Freeway

YAYAYAYAYAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!

Either that or my brain has set up a red light on the freeway! :p

Spent nearly an hour on those nasty dishes! Fortunately they weren't all mine! When I house sat I had to wait a few days for there to be enough dishes to justify the water usage (We're on level 3 water restirictions!)...then I come home and back to the never-ending pile...

My mind has finally gone blank today... time to relax :)

Freeway of Thoughts

I'm having one of those days where my mind just has a zillion things to do... and oh no! Mum just arrived home and I haven't even done the dishes yet...

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, I haven't had time to do much...done 3 loads of washing... been to the shops and back... done a lot of administration for my ministry.... and just ignored a "private caller" phone call...and THEN it re-called so I answered... AND it was for mum...who was just walking up the stairs...

and ok, I think the towels would have finished washing by now!

In reality I probably have less to do than it FEELS... I would love to clean my room (lol!) but there are much more important things to do! My room... I refuse to allow anybody to see my room which currently reflects my freeway of thoughts...craZy Drivers racing around my brain!!!!!!

But I'm happy despite the craziness! :p time to be the house maid again!
ciao a tutti!

"BOLDLY ADVANCE"

Yes...last night a 2nd lightbulb went on! Our church's theme for this year is "Boldly Advance".
After seeing the vision for my ministry, I realised that what I am about to set out to do is going to require me to be bold in order to advance.

Last year the theme was "Courage and Strength". It wasn't until nearly the end of the year that I realised I HAD gained courage and strength in my life... in ministry, in work, in my character... and going overseas solo...that was a HUGE step but I'm so glad I went!!!

and the year before that, the theme was "Flourish" - and my ministry DID flourish! We set the foundations, gained new leaders, created new interventions and new programs...and FLOURISHED as a team and as a ministry...

...so I know God has had his hand on this ministry from the beginning...even before the beginning when I had the dream in my heart, but absolutely no idea how to make it happen...

so this year I will BOLDLY ADVANCE, BE a VOICE for my children and my leadership team... these children need an ADVOCATE, a VOICE to speak on their behalf...and I must be that voice... all I need is to take hold of God's promises, take up my sword and take the first step! :)

...to be continued! :)

God is AWESOME!!!

I love how God works... when I feel the least close to him, he just seems to show up and remind me that he is ALWAYS looking out for me, and ALWAYS with me...

this week... well for the last 2 months really, I've been dealing with some issues which I don't feel free to share... but to do with my leadership... and last night in my intercession group, 2 of us who seem to be having similar "spiritual challenges" saw visions we couldn't understand... and after a few minutes of sharing, one of the older ladies suggested that our visions were for ourselves... and suddenly the light bulbs clicked on!

I just KNOW that God has made a way for me... all I need to do is walk through that door (or crawl through the small opening there just for me)...and he will help things to move forward! :)

There is so much more, but this is not a topic to share openly. I will share more later when I know I'm in the 'zone' and the right things are happening!

But God is definitely one awesome dude!!!!!!!!

Summertime Ramble...

Helloooooo!!!!!!!!!
Time flies when you're BUSY and house sitting...so I haven't used the internet much this week because I'm house sitting for my brother and sister-in-law... why do we seem to have the HOTTEST days when I house sit!!!! Last nite I had a fan (thanks to my mum FORCING me to take it with me!) on most of the night... the air con is awesome but just doesn't seem to reach the bedroom.

Tried a new work type this morning... In-Home Support...where you go to peoples' homes and help them them shower etc... its through the council, but I worked through the agency... was a nice change. The people were all nice. The first was a lady in a wheelchair whose husband helped out a bit...then there was a 91yr old lady who I seriously thought was only about 70yrs old! And then I arrived to my final home...to be told they called the council this morning and they said nobody would be coming today so they already did the shower... and when I called the agency they said the shift was confirmed yesterday (after confirming last week also) so I filled out my time sheet due to the cancellation... we get paid if we are cancelled on arrival...but not if we are cancelled with warning... for example, if they called me about an hour earlier I wouldn't be paid, but if I had already started to travel to the shift, I would be paid...

So back to house sitting... The "permanent residents" arrive home tomorrow...so I will be spending a good part of today cleaning and moving most of my things back home... literally around the corner...so only about 1km away! :) So I intend to have enough to stay one more night then go to work and not have to worry about moving out before they arrive home! :)

Gee I know how to type! This must be one of the most boring topics, but I jsut feel like typing! And am testing myself out...bought a touch typing program because I know I can type better if I unlearn my many bad typing habits! Getting better! Except the program seems to be wanting to push me to the next level before I am comfortable with the previous one...however...I think, looking at my typing right now...I have improved heaps! Especially in accuracy and not looking at the keyboard!!! Yay!! Unlearning looking at my fingers. I got As in school for touch typing, but that was before computers were the "way" to do assignments. I got As in year 7 and we didn't get a home computer til Year 10... it wasn't until year 12 where I was required to type my assignments! So by then I'd gone very rusty...

ok, that's enough about the history of my typing skills... I'm sure you're sooooo excited! :p haha!

Oh well, if you bothered to read this far, it's not my fault! :p hehehe!

Showing Off...Pays Off!

Haha... its funny how sometimes you show off without realising people are watching you...

Yesterday I was asked to go shopping for the house I was working at... and I took the van... which was reversed in the drive...so when I returned I reversed it back... it was a tight fit between the carport posts and a car already in the carport...but I did it :)

I decided I have a truck licence, so why can't I reverse a VAN into a tight space...
and when I walked inside I was congratulated by abotu 5 staff!!!! All women... if I knew they were ALL watching me I would've been so self conscious! Haha! They were joking about me hitting the small car...and the owner said it would do her a favour... I said I'd be very disappointed in myself if I DID hit the car... and so would my dad ;)

So my unintentional showing off actually got me more work for the next few weeks!!!!
The supervisor asked for my availablity so I can drive the clients for recreation programs during the school holidays.

Feeling HOT HOT HOT!

The last time I felt this hot and sticky and worn out... was when I arrived in London! And the heat wasn't even as HOT but I still remember the feeling!

I just finished house sitting... worked a 9hour shift with kids... went back to the house and cleaned... and came home and now my feet are killing and I'm just so HOT!!!!

At work, after about 6 hours an autistic boy came and crawled all over me wanting me to tickle him! He kept touching my face...and just crawled all over me because I was sitting in a lounge chair, and was in a position to tickle him! He was a gorgeous kid.

But tonite I get to sleep in my own bed... and my house is so much cooler than the one I just left! :) The first nite I kept waking up during the night because I felt I was about to fall out of bed! I went from my awesome Queen bed to a single bed... but I always get used to it if I know it's short term :)

Ok, this is the Too Hot Robyn speaking... whose feet need to rest... overall I had a good day :)